Moon dreams

 

Heading in to spring

 It has been a very mild winter here on the island, and I have taken advantage of the cool weather in the mornings to head out for my walk. I have also started on my class  wanderlust. Below my photo are two pages from the lesson. There are many more to come, I relish the time I can sit and learn from the amazing teachers that Kasia provides.  More to come!!!!!

I am back on track

 It has been quite a few years of hit and miss as I create. I am determined this year to stay on track. 

Have joined several art classes. And will post my progress. Fun stuff!

Pages from the journal this year 2023

 New things and new ideaz have been popping up since I started courses in Wanderlust 2023- below are some journal pages.

Reflections

Looking forward to an amazing year of life- my goals are simple , my word for the year is Be  Still- which will require me looking at the reflection of myself in the moment and figuring out what is the next best thing to be or do.   I am learning to stand in one place and slowly take it in, with out rushing to a conclusion. To do my best, be my best and Let God be God!

 Learning is the right word to place in this brief essay of my goals. Above is a perfect picture from my morning walk to display the reflection of the beauty around me in the peace of still water - May I be reminded throughout the year of this stillness from God.

My Magnificent Mountain - rearview

  Been awhile since I even thought about my blog, I forgot why I love blogging so much, it is a diary of days or months for me- I can go back and review my minds history of ideas, creativitiy, life moments good and bad. I am in the midst of change right now. Not sure why, but I presume it has to do with turning 63- or I should say politely-over 60. The good things first.  I truly am living in my God given purpose- supported by amazing husband, friends and family- my faith is strong tho tested, my goals remain strong and clear ( helping those who are struggling with memory loss, and the ones that care for and love them).  My super empath heart wants to make life better for the families I serve. It is my joy.

 Now the hard things... At this time, my biggest battle is ...my own resilence is gone.  I am overwhelmed, I feel like I have lost more battles than won. I am trying to define myself in a new structure, new sphere of life, trying to make the days I have lived count, trying to  make new days count as well.  Grief keeps showing up everywhere and made larger by my thought life. SO,  here I am July 17, 2022 pouring it out,  a record of my thoughts. It will get better, I know, but in this moment I want to learn what these testings have accomplished, where are they taking me. so I write.  This is a recourd of that path.

 Small insight today:

When you are on top of the mountain that  you have climbed so dilgently, having come through struggles along the way, you think wonderful now I can rest! Then you see the many other peaks along the ridges ahead to be accomplished. You have done it before you can do it again. With great perserverance you head down to the valley for a stroll  to another  new climb - only you get one obstacle, one delay, one turn gone worng after another and you realise you have to do it all over again.  However, before you can even begin to climb again you must camp out on the ridge for awhile, get used to the air, breathe,make a plan, get up, move slow.  THAT is where I am, soul weary and in need of a rest.

Whats helping today:

 Reading a wonderful book called Fractured Faith  by Lina  Abujamra- slowly digesting it- making it part of my  daily intake. Some days I go back and stare at " my magnificent mountain" I was on top of and remember things in the rear view mirror are not always whet they seem. GOD is here with me, not there, He got me there,  He led me here. He is Walking slowly in front of me, catching my face when I turn around and saying to my heart - look at me chld - follow me- eyes on me. Today we go forward. 

the art of letting go

 Ways to let go and trust God

loosen your grip

drop it

walk away

give it up

accept the answer

say goodbye

disconnect

turn away

What to let go of

bad emotions

bad people

criticism of self and others

things that don't work

things you don't need

things that take up space

things that don't fit you, or your life,

right to be right or right to  have an answer

finding perfect

fear of failure

This is my year to Let Go - praciticing letting go, and do it.